Thursday, February 26, 2009


I know there are 7 deadly sins...truthfully aren't all sins deadly? That is why we need Christ. Anyway that isn't what I was intending to say. Out of the 7 deadly I can tell you that the one I struggle with ( OK it isn't even a struggle,,,) is slothfulness. Although gluttony runs a screaming second. You would think being a stay at home mom I would accomplish so much. Nope, the more time I have the less I tend to do. I work much better under pressure. You can see how I have neglected my blogging. I love doing this and it is great therapy for me but....lazy!!! I have lots of projects started or running through my mind but most never get completed. This runs in my family, my mom will agree with this about me and herself as well. I need help. Any one that has any great advice or better yet scripture I can pray over and over I would really appreciate. I need to break free from this and I need accountability. I don't need nagging, judging, or complaining....I can do that myself. I know God doesn't like a sloth, hence the deadly sin. I don't like being this way but don't have the will power to stop. It is like going on a diet YUCK that isn't even a fun word. I need Mary Poppins out look for cleaning and any thing else that requires energy and gumption. Thank God He loves many anyway but I know He doesn't want me to stay this off to do more laundry and maybe something else:0

Monday, February 23, 2009


I have a tattoo....some of you are no doubt surprised. I was :D Growing up getting a tattoo never entered my mind. So here is the story of how and why things changed and I now have one.
3 years ago (aprox.) I stared really spending time with God in a new way for me. I was seeking Him, reading, praying, fasting, needing to draw close and have a fresh outlook. I didn't even know why I just knew God wanted more of me. I have never had good self esteem. I didn't date (not even prom). More than once I was told I was "nice" but...Looking back I know God protected me from a lot. I really started getting "IT" I am beautiful!!!!! God loves me, He is in love with me, He thinks I am breathtakingly beautiful!!!! I don't think 99% of us really believe that and it is sad. Paul is a wonderful husband, but he isn't perfect, I don't get as many compliments as I would like, I don't always feel like I am pretty to him ( my problem not just his)But it doesn't matter what anyone else may think I am beautiful to the GREAT I AM!!!!! Doesn't that just blow your mind? I have the tattoo as a reminder of what God thinks of me. In the Old Testament, they would put up memorials to remember what God had done. My tattoo is my memorial of what God has taught me. I pray I never forget. How can I with my beautiful reminder! By the way Paul does believe I am beautiful too. You are beautiful too, and if you need a tattoo...go for it :D

Monday, February 2, 2009

aah haa moment

I always joke (and I am not alone in this)"don't pray for patience". It really goes for anything. If I pray for more faith, what is God going to do to increase my faith? Just wave a magic wand? I doubt it, give me situations to give me faith? YES!!Praying for anything, faith, strength, patience, humility, compassion ( I did this and I now live with my mother-in-law :D )is going to get us things to teach us how to have these. Look at the fruits of the Spirit. Try praying for that and see what you get. God usually puts someone or several someones in my life to make me more like Him. He wants us to have unconditional love, He wants us to forgive.Unfortunately that is how we learn, or at least attempt to learn. I was being sooo spiritual yesterday at church and was praying for God to help me be nice to someone that drives me crazy and I got a huge aah ha moment. Not fun but huge... I am that someone that so so prayed for when they needed to be more compassionate...OUCH! I am teaching someone patience, unconditional love, etc. and not by being a godly example but because I rub someone the wrong way? Say it isn't so. How humbling, how painful, how embarrassing, how unfortunately true.