Thursday, September 8, 2011
Can I handle it?
Over the last few weeks I have been reminded that many people think I am a strong person. I have been told over and over again that I am "one of the strongest people they know" Sometimes I even get tired of hearing it. I have been through so much. If I would have known at 15 years old all that would happen I couldn't have handled it.I have moved and said goodbye more times than I would like. I have been made fun of and teased by many, including being told I was the nice one but not the pretty one. I have been very poor, saw my sister go blind at age 21, lost many family members and friends to death, including my father and sister way too soon. I didn't get married until I was almost 30 and many days I thought it would never happen. I have a daughter with special needs that is daily a challenge.I have left people and everything I love and not been able to look back. I have been hurt and hurt others I could go on and on. The point is I am not strong. I am often told "God will not give you more than you can handle", hog wash. God will not give me more than HE can handle, and guess what? He can handle anything!!! When people see that I strong, they are really seeing Jesus in me. Trust me, I am falling apart inside many times, thinking "I can't do this anymore" Without my Savior I would be a basket case. The next time I am having a hard day or even a hard week I need to remember God is my strength so I don't have to be strong.