Monday, September 29, 2008


I have a lot of people telling me how strong I am with everything that has happened the last couple of years. I don't feel strong and I am tired. If this is true though, then why do I not want to wait. I have read and heard Isaiah 40:31 more times than I can count. I tell God often how tired and weak I am. Yet I can not explain my rational for wanting to go, do, be, something. This scripture says Yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength (nas). I say I have no strength yet I don't like waiting. Maybe it is the unknown or the what if's that play through my mind. Really I think I am afraid that God will just leave me here and never use me again (poor me). God owes me nothing and yet He has given me more than I ever deserved! I am still trying to be content. God is saying wait and until I hear something different I need to stay put and let God renew my strength. Pray for me


Vera said...

I am still trying to figure out my pass word.

Vera said...

now let me see if i can send you something

Vera said...

Hi Goldie, This has been the hardest post I have tried to get a chance to respond to ever.

I just wanted to let you know that you are a very strong person, and even stronger because God makes you even stronger.

Goldie, I would imagine you are growing and becoming stronger through all of this, you probably don't see it now, but when you come out of this valley you will see how you have grown and matured in God. The battle is hard I know, but the growth will be so much more. Its like giving birth, the pain is almost unbearable but the joy of the delivery is beautiful, its going to be the same for you in this situation.

God does want to use you and Paul and he will, he just had to sit you aside for a little while, but i am really sure you will be used again, and the heart of you he sees wanting to work for him has to bring a smile to his face. Goldie I am sure he will use you again is if he was through with you I believe he would take you home! Stay in touch. Vera